Anyway, fun fact number 3 – I avoid talking about my troubles to my friends because I know that once I start, I become super whiny Rusty. And nobody likes super whiny Rusty, not even myself. But alter ego does come out sometimes but lucky for my friends, he interacts mainly with my family.
To lighten the load for my family, I shall unleash super whiny Rusty just a little on the blog. Anyone, who don’t wish to meet him, please stop reading from this point.
For the kind souls, here goes…
Lately, I do feel stress and pressure even though I am working on something that I am passionate about. I know it is tough to make a career switch and it is going to take time to see progress. I did set a timeline of 1 year (which is going to end in August 2013) to evaluate if I am on the right track with my passion. What I am targeting is not to resume my previous job salary but rather to be able to cover minimal expenses. I mean it is one thing to be passionate about some thing but if I don’t have the necessary skills to make it work, I still need to move on right?
It is already April 2013, over the halfway mark but things are still progressing very slowly. Doubts are definitely creeping in as to whether I can make it. So far, the only success (albeit a very small one) that I have is with my Rusty Doodle store. No results with the various other channels (my friend’s website, 3 other print on demand companies) that I have tried. There are still 4 to 5 more things that I am planning to try if time permits.
Don’t get me wrong, I am very thankful that I am seeing even some results and for everyone who has supported me one way or another. It is just that the uncertainty over the future means the job stability mentality and the hamster wheel is calling out to me. Friends around me, relatives and my parents are also encouraging me to get a job and do the doodles on a part time basis. And indeed I am toying with that idea. But it is actually rather tough trying to make it while doing it full time. How many years will it take if I am doing it part time in order to reach my goal?
I am still trying to figure things out but in the meantime, I will be FIGHTING!!!
Thank you for braving through my rants.